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May I ask you a personal question?




Do you like who you are as a person?




Can you like yourself as you are now: not your someday self or maybe self. Just your self?

Where did your mind take you to when you read that?




The chances are your mind takes you someplace… away from you.



Maybe backwards: To when you were on vacation, when you received a promotion, or when you were having sex or meditating… even riding in a car blasting music.


...Away from you.


Maybe forward to the imaginary future: You have more money, you are in better shape, you feel confident, you don’t have a cold, you beat your addictions, you no longer feel insecure about your relationship.


...Away from the present.



Where you went is a big clue on how to like yourself right now.


Perhaps your mind exploded: maybe you are in between jobs, you are out of money, you don’t have transportation, your partner is leaving you, you just received devastating news, you are sick, or you are on a cleanse and can’t leave the toilet, you are hungover, you are tired… excuses and excuses as to why you can’t feel good about yourself yet.


After all of these ventures the mind takes you on, you think to yourself

“in the future though, once I have ___ and ___, oh how much I’ll like myself then.”


Personally I can ask myself the same question and mentally jump to when I took the photo in this post: "yes I like myself"


False.


I mentally escape the present by time traveling to another instance I felt happy in my skin.


All of the above is bullshit for “I am not good enough to like myself right now.”


I am calling your bluff.


Every thought that screams “you have to worry about ___ first” is a defense mechanism to keep you away from the true prize.


Yourself.


Don’t be discouraged if it makes you uncomfortable to the point that you want to disengage and focus on something else.

Most people feel the same way. They have a streamline of information coming at them which perfectly validates how they are not good enough to be liked. How they fail to meet some standard.


Think of someone you love, like a sibling or best friend; and imagine them telling you how much they believe they are no good. Imagine this loved one sitting in front of you and genuinely believing they can’t like themself.


Wouldn’t you feel compassion towards them?


In the same way draw compassion towards yourself for all the discomfort.


Right in this moment feel yourself.


Don’t like it?


Keep feeling.


Uncomfortable?


Good.


This is a practice on presence.


A practice of becoming close with yourself.


You can scream, cry, move around, write, or whatever helps you let go.


Once it feels complete, return to the question…


Do you like who you are as a person?



I dare you.




- Of Wolves and Wildflowers-


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